[it is not a minute, but he doesn't really know how long it is. he almost snaps his hands back away from her, because he should have some semblance of dignity left. then again, he's already ripped raw in front of her, what difference does this make?]
[cassian stares at her face, and he tries very hard to listen to her breathing, but it doesn't quite settle him. he doesn't know if it helps or not.]
[he tries to match her pace and heaves for a moment instead, because she's so close. he wants her to be close all the time, but he doesn't know if that's okay. he doesn't know if that's normal.]
[he feels dizzy, and he squeezes her hands, like maybe it can help ground him.] I'm sorry. I don't -
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[cassian stares at her face, and he tries very hard to listen to her breathing, but it doesn't quite settle him. he doesn't know if it helps or not.]
[he tries to match her pace and heaves for a moment instead, because she's so close. he wants her to be close all the time, but he doesn't know if that's okay. he doesn't know if that's normal.]
[he feels dizzy, and he squeezes her hands, like maybe it can help ground him.] I'm sorry. I don't -
[his breath shorts out again on him.]