[ jyn and daisy have a house because of dream graffiti -- and she will get to that -- but she has never been able to retain dreams very well so she is kind of struggling to piece together what happened when she was passed out next to the sink. ]
Was I there?
[ she remembers snow and cassian and this feeling -- warmth and comfort and closeness -- but. maybe it was simply her own dream. maybe she invented the stories of his family to make herself feel less alone, like they are more alike, like someone else understands being alone for so long that the parts of you that know how to care for someone else, how to be cared for, start to atrophy from years of disuse.
or maybe it was real and the parts of her that had died to protect herself from a lifetime of loss and abandonment can be slowly coaxed back to life. ]
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Was I there?
[ she remembers snow and cassian and this feeling -- warmth and comfort and closeness -- but. maybe it was simply her own dream. maybe she invented the stories of his family to make herself feel less alone, like they are more alike, like someone else understands being alone for so long that the parts of you that know how to care for someone else, how to be cared for, start to atrophy from years of disuse.
or maybe it was real and the parts of her that had died to protect herself from a lifetime of loss and abandonment can be slowly coaxed back to life. ]