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even i know it doesn't always work
sometimes you need to science the shit out of stuff to solve problems

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I do not know if science has the answers to being a good person either.

Maybe there is a combination of all of the above.

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what if we're too broken?

[ we is easier to write than i. she thinks cassian won't take it personally. she thinks he must have wondered the same thing at some point, but maybe she's wrong about that. ]

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[ he thinks he is most of the time. it's not really a wonder so much as something he takes as fact: cassian andor is very broken. ]

You can still keep trying to fix whatever is left.

[ she used 'we,' but he can't bring himself to do the same. ]

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[ she notices the you, the lack of we, but doesn't even know how to begin addressing that. ]

i've been trying

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That counts. It means you want to do better.

Intentions are important.

[ now if only he could apply that logic to himself too. ]

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half the time

what about you?

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Half the time is still more than none of the time.

What, my intentions?

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yeah

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I do what I need to for the Rebellion.

[ listen. he will defend everyone else's intentions just fine but his own clearly DON'T MATTER. ]

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there's no rebellion here

[ let her point that out instead of the hypocrisy of his disregard for himself ]

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[ he never said he wasn't a hypocrite!! ]

No, but there are many similarities between the corruption of this world and my own.

My intentions vary from mission to mission.

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there's the whole morningstar thing
you into that?

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I was. It seemed like a good means to an end.

But some of the people involved do not know how to work with an organization like that.

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what happened?

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How did you miss it?

Subtly is not many people's strong suit here.

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you mean the whole pr shitstorm?

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That is putting it nicely.

There is a line between doing something necessary and not alienating a populace.

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so now what?

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Still working on that part for myself.

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let me know when you figure it out

[ when, not if

he better appreciate her faith in him ]

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I will.

[ he does, actually, and it is reassuring. ]

You know I make no promises on giving up sobriety, but if you want company for a drink sometime, you can always give me more types to try.

[ she is alone and sad about johnny... maybe a roundabout offering of company is the best approach. ]

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[ she sees what you're doing, cassian. she sees what you're doing, but it's — roundabout enough that she can take him up on it easily. ]

there's a whole lot of whiskey you should try

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[ it was not the most subtle he could have been, but he wasn't trying to be dishonest about his intentions. it feels important for her to know she isn't left alone just because johnny is gone. ]

Any of them in your possession?

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take a guess

[ the answer is obviously yes

and she won't say that she appreciates the reminder that she's not alone, but. well. ]