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[ hands free now, jyn decides they can roam freely across his back, encountering scars she's become so well acquainted with during their massages. it's a different angle now but it's familiar and it grounds her in something she knows when the rest of this is all new and uncertain.
god, what if she's shit? what if she doesn't remember how anything works? what if she can't... she and hadder were teenage idiots, there was approximately no build up and it was over in a handful of minutes. this has already gone on ten times longer, something is definitely building. but what if she blows it?
ughhhhhhhhhhhh.
she tries to force herself to focus on what cassian is doing, shoving her uncertainty away. this is new, they are new, they can learn it together, it's fine! they'll learn what they like, together! as a team.
a team that is still making her wriggle beneath him, even while she's having an existential crisis. still tilting her head to encourage his lips and teeth and tongue to continue while some small part of her is freaking out at the reality of what they're doing. she focuses on the sensation of his sure, strong fingers against delicate skin, his warm breath against her throat, the weight of him pressing down on her. it makes her dizzy, but it burns away some of the anxiety and that is a fair trade. ]
Mmm, do that again.
god, what if she's shit? what if she doesn't remember how anything works? what if she can't... she and hadder were teenage idiots, there was approximately no build up and it was over in a handful of minutes. this has already gone on ten times longer, something is definitely building. but what if she blows it?
ughhhhhhhhhhhh.
she tries to force herself to focus on what cassian is doing, shoving her uncertainty away. this is new, they are new, they can learn it together, it's fine! they'll learn what they like, together! as a team.
a team that is still making her wriggle beneath him, even while she's having an existential crisis. still tilting her head to encourage his lips and teeth and tongue to continue while some small part of her is freaking out at the reality of what they're doing. she focuses on the sensation of his sure, strong fingers against delicate skin, his warm breath against her throat, the weight of him pressing down on her. it makes her dizzy, but it burns away some of the anxiety and that is a fair trade. ]
Mmm, do that again.
Edited 2018-06-05 00:52 (UTC)
[he likes the trace of her hands over his back, much softer than the massages but no less enjoyable. as previously noted, he likes being touched by jyn. it makes him feel... wanted, in a very general sense of the word.]
[she tells him to do it again, and he does, mapping out her neck with teeth and tongue, but there's something...off. it's not that she wants to stop, he knows she would shove him away at the very least. uncertainty maybe, even in the face of how much she's telling him what she wants and wriggling with purpose against him.]
[he pauses with a very gentle kiss, leaving his mouth against her skin. he could go lower, but there's a niggling concern that keeps him from it. not until he's sure.] Jyn. Are you okay?
[she tells him to do it again, and he does, mapping out her neck with teeth and tongue, but there's something...off. it's not that she wants to stop, he knows she would shove him away at the very least. uncertainty maybe, even in the face of how much she's telling him what she wants and wriggling with purpose against him.]
[he pauses with a very gentle kiss, leaving his mouth against her skin. he could go lower, but there's a niggling concern that keeps him from it. not until he's sure.] Jyn. Are you okay?
We'll see what my level of functionality is. Did you get sick?
It might be a good test. If it's just... symptoms.
[in case he wants like. other potions. that help with things like muscle and back pain. but relieving symptoms feels doable. potion, pain pills, maybe it's more or less the same thing.]
It might be a good test. If it's just... symptoms.
[in case he wants like. other potions. that help with things like muscle and back pain. but relieving symptoms feels doable. potion, pain pills, maybe it's more or less the same thing.]
I'm fine. [ it's defensive though, and she knows that is going to make him pause longer so she begrudgingly elaborates, making a face. ]
I haven't... done this. In a while. Just- [ breathing out a huff, she tries to explain but finds she can't. she will be fine once she acclimates to everything and cassian has always been good at getting her out of her own head. ] Don't stop.
I haven't... done this. In a while. Just- [ breathing out a huff, she tries to explain but finds she can't. she will be fine once she acclimates to everything and cassian has always been good at getting her out of her own head. ] Don't stop.
[she's right! the defensive tone has him freezing in place, pulling away from her neck to look up at her face. he wants to be able to read it, not just listen to the tone of her voice.]
[his first instinct is to just stop entirely and try to talk about it, but she doesn't want that. he... doesn't think he wants that either, because they both still clearly want more.] It's been a little while, for me too.
[not as long, but he has no frame of reference for her end.]
[he kisses her, lingering for a few seconds to promise her he isn't going to stop.] Can I do anything, to make it easier?
[his first instinct is to just stop entirely and try to talk about it, but she doesn't want that. he... doesn't think he wants that either, because they both still clearly want more.] It's been a little while, for me too.
[not as long, but he has no frame of reference for her end.]
[he kisses her, lingering for a few seconds to promise her he isn't going to stop.] Can I do anything, to make it easier?
[this is? not helpful? he wants to make sure she is comfortable and good and okay. trudging forward is usually the way jyn deals with anything, and usually it's not even a bad method, but it still worries him. whether she likes it or not, he's gonna use some Words at her now.]
[but first he kisses her again, gently.] I did not say I was going to stop.
Tell me if there is something you want. Or if I do something you don't like. Otherwise, we can just... figure it out together, along the way. I do not think there is a wrong way to move forward, as long as we are both clear.
[but first he kisses her again, gently.] I did not say I was going to stop.
Tell me if there is something you want. Or if I do something you don't like. Otherwise, we can just... figure it out together, along the way. I do not think there is a wrong way to move forward, as long as we are both clear.
[ they should be all naked. ]
Figure it out together, that's what I meant! Force, you're so nosy. I'll tell you what I like, alright, when I kriffin' figure it out. Are you happy now?
[ he's like a fussy mama goat and she just wants to be making out!!! why does he always have to know things! ]
Figure it out together, that's what I meant! Force, you're so nosy. I'll tell you what I like, alright, when I kriffin' figure it out. Are you happy now?
[ he's like a fussy mama goat and she just wants to be making out!!! why does he always have to know things! ]
[he should be happier. he is happy she agreed to it, and he believes her, no qualms there.]
[is he being nosy? he doesn't know how to do this. not sex, he knows that, but this talking and real intimacy and knowing the other person so well during. maybe winging it is how it's supposed to go, if she's going to keep waving off everything he says.]
You did not say that. [he mumbles it, tucking away all his questions and thoughts once again as he presses his face back into the cradle of her neck. some of it is selfish reasons, because now she can't see his face, but he kisses her there again just like she wants.]
[is he being nosy? he doesn't know how to do this. not sex, he knows that, but this talking and real intimacy and knowing the other person so well during. maybe winging it is how it's supposed to go, if she's going to keep waving off everything he says.]
You did not say that. [he mumbles it, tucking away all his questions and thoughts once again as he presses his face back into the cradle of her neck. some of it is selfish reasons, because now she can't see his face, but he kisses her there again just like she wants.]
[ ♪ it's always been you -- ray lamontagne
no, that-- jyn sighs, unhappy. shoulders somehow managing to slump into the couch even though she's already laying down. ]
Cassian, stop kissing me.
[ she knows he will so she doesn't nudge him away from her. if he wants to keep hidden, tucked under her chin, she wouldn't blame him at all. honestly she would prefer that. ]
I was a teenager and we were idiots. It lasted... three minutes and it probably was terrible. I don't know how to navigate any of this because I never had to. I don't know what I want and I don't know what I do or do not like, but I know you'll take care of me so it didn't seem like something I had to really worry about.
[ quietly, ] I trust you.
no, that-- jyn sighs, unhappy. shoulders somehow managing to slump into the couch even though she's already laying down. ]
Cassian, stop kissing me.
[ she knows he will so she doesn't nudge him away from her. if he wants to keep hidden, tucked under her chin, she wouldn't blame him at all. honestly she would prefer that. ]
I was a teenager and we were idiots. It lasted... three minutes and it probably was terrible. I don't know how to navigate any of this because I never had to. I don't know what I want and I don't know what I do or do not like, but I know you'll take care of me so it didn't seem like something I had to really worry about.
[ quietly, ] I trust you.
Edited 2018-06-05 05:03 (UTC)
[he stops immediately when she tells him to, but he doesn't move, keeping himself buried there like he is burying so many other things.]
[still, he does find himself relaxing the tiniest bit once she actually expands and explains herself. it's another little piece of her he hadn't known before.]
[and she trusts him. he knows this, but hearing her say it now is both a comfort and an oddity.]
I trust you too. [he says it into her neck. there are a lot of parts of him that feel open to her right now. it's scary, but she says she trusts him and it reminds him of the same.] Thank you, for telling me.
[he hesitates.] It has not been as long, for me. But - I don't want you to worry. I'm glad you aren't. Hopefully we can move you beyond 'probably terrible.'
[there. maybe that will get them back on track. he's not really sure how to navigate the finer, more emotional parts - but he can probably handle the physical.]
[still, he does find himself relaxing the tiniest bit once she actually expands and explains herself. it's another little piece of her he hadn't known before.]
[and she trusts him. he knows this, but hearing her say it now is both a comfort and an oddity.]
I trust you too. [he says it into her neck. there are a lot of parts of him that feel open to her right now. it's scary, but she says she trusts him and it reminds him of the same.] Thank you, for telling me.
[he hesitates.] It has not been as long, for me. But - I don't want you to worry. I'm glad you aren't. Hopefully we can move you beyond 'probably terrible.'
[there. maybe that will get them back on track. he's not really sure how to navigate the finer, more emotional parts - but he can probably handle the physical.]
We are definitely okay. [he means that! he has no reason to believe otherwise.]
[for about two seconds, there is a flash of confusion on his face. like he doesn't understand why someone would ask that question. but he smooths it out into a smile, because what he wants is right in front of him. it's her.]
I will. Right now I want to... kiss you. And keep kissing you. I want to figure out what you like and see what happens along the way.
[for about two seconds, there is a flash of confusion on his face. like he doesn't understand why someone would ask that question. but he smooths it out into a smile, because what he wants is right in front of him. it's her.]
I will. Right now I want to... kiss you. And keep kissing you. I want to figure out what you like and see what happens along the way.
[as much as part of him would like to just talk more, about this, about them, about anything, the other part of him is still pressed up against her, and the moment she says kiss me then, it's all he can think about.]
[so he does, leaning down to kiss her again. unlike the usual, he does not start off gentle or slow this time; he tries to pick up exactly where they left off, tracing his tongue along the seam of her lips.]
[so he does, leaning down to kiss her again. unlike the usual, he does not start off gentle or slow this time; he tries to pick up exactly where they left off, tracing his tongue along the seam of her lips.]
[ oh!
jyn's lips part almost more in surprise than in answer but she finds her bearings quickly enough, surging forward, arms tangling around his chest against to hold him against herself. no escape. her fingers press hard into the muscles of his back as she breathes in, breathing him in.
she definitely likes this so jot that down. ]
jyn's lips part almost more in surprise than in answer but she finds her bearings quickly enough, surging forward, arms tangling around his chest against to hold him against herself. no escape. her fingers press hard into the muscles of his back as she breathes in, breathing him in.
she definitely likes this so jot that down. ]
[cassian is memorizing all the ways she reacts, taking careful note of what she seems to like more. his hand slides out and he cradles her face, basking in the sensation of the way she pulls him flush to her. it sends a little shiver down his spine, because it's not like he regularly gets this physically close to people.]
[he bites at her lip, then rolls his hips a little against hers. they're close enough that it sort of presses everything a little closer for a second, but he doesn't think she'll mind. she likes the clutch of it enough already!]
[he bites at her lip, then rolls his hips a little against hers. they're close enough that it sort of presses everything a little closer for a second, but he doesn't think she'll mind. she likes the clutch of it enough already!]
[ the noise she makes when he presses against her is shameful, or would be if jyn was capable of such a thing. it's nearly lost in the kisses, but it's there, and her fingers hold tighter, nails just beginning to press in.
tiny little crescent moons to complement his scars. ]
What do you like? [ it's breathed out, interrupted by breathy little noises, punctuated by her knee dragging up his thigh, opening up more room for him between her legs. ]
tiny little crescent moons to complement his scars. ]
What do you like? [ it's breathed out, interrupted by breathy little noises, punctuated by her knee dragging up his thigh, opening up more room for him between her legs. ]
[these are all sorts of noises he is kind of falling in love with. even without words, it tells him a lot about what she might like.]
[he doesn't like her question. it's the second time she's confronting him with what he wants and likes and he doesn't have an answer. he isn't even making as much sound, just quieter even if he's breathing hard.]
[her leg moves, and he wants to wrap them both around his waist, but they're still wearing pants. instead he tucks his own knee between her legs and slides it up high, just barely teasing and brushing against her.]
I like how you're holding me. [which is true. her grip is tight, just like his pants!]
[he doesn't like her question. it's the second time she's confronting him with what he wants and likes and he doesn't have an answer. he isn't even making as much sound, just quieter even if he's breathing hard.]
[her leg moves, and he wants to wrap them both around his waist, but they're still wearing pants. instead he tucks his own knee between her legs and slides it up high, just barely teasing and brushing against her.]
I like how you're holding me. [which is true. her grip is tight, just like his pants!]
[ her soft gasp is buried against his throat, stretching up to press her lips against his neck, grip winding tighter like she can drag him closer still and make him easier to reach.
she kisses up his neck, lips brushing against the coarse stubble across his jaw and stifling soft laughter when she remembers the brief minute that she'd managed to give him bail organa's prolific goatee. he'd said something, in the casual quiet of their tent, that she remembers now.
You would still do it now.
he was right, of course, and she proves it, kissing higher, pressing a warm, open-mouthed kiss behind his ear before catching his earlobe between her teeth, biting briefly, not enough to hurt, and letting it drag free as that faint laughter continues, breath warm against his skin. ]
I like holding you.
she kisses up his neck, lips brushing against the coarse stubble across his jaw and stifling soft laughter when she remembers the brief minute that she'd managed to give him bail organa's prolific goatee. he'd said something, in the casual quiet of their tent, that she remembers now.
You would still do it now.
he was right, of course, and she proves it, kissing higher, pressing a warm, open-mouthed kiss behind his ear before catching his earlobe between her teeth, biting briefly, not enough to hurt, and letting it drag free as that faint laughter continues, breath warm against his skin. ]
I like holding you.
Edited 2018-06-06 22:33 (UTC)
[he's still a lot quieter than she is, even if he's categorizing how she sounds after everything he does. it's almost methodical, but in a very exploratory way.]
[he happily sighs when she kisses up his throat, allowing himself and her to just enjoy it, though he slides his knee up even higher, neatly pressing between her legs. it feels strange to just allow something nice for himself, so clearly he needs to make up for it.]
[she bites, unsurprisingly. she does in a fight, of course she would here too. he's not surprised, but he does inhale more sharply than intended, which is the real surprise for him. but she's laughing, and he finds himself smiling.]
I liked that too. [so like, she can keep biting.]
[he happily sighs when she kisses up his throat, allowing himself and her to just enjoy it, though he slides his knee up even higher, neatly pressing between her legs. it feels strange to just allow something nice for himself, so clearly he needs to make up for it.]
[she bites, unsurprisingly. she does in a fight, of course she would here too. he's not surprised, but he does inhale more sharply than intended, which is the real surprise for him. but she's laughing, and he finds himself smiling.]
I liked that too. [so like, she can keep biting.]
[ the pressure is steady and broad, far from the pinpoint precision of her own fingers when she gets down to it, but it still does something funny to her, making her stomach flutter and her fingers dig into his back.
it feels indulgent, drinking in cassian like this, lingering in every kiss and breath. she's too distracted to take much note of what he might like aside from what he tells her but there's always next time. the thought of a next time, of many next times, makes her nerves feel like they've been shocked, a sizzle and then warmth. ]
What else would you like? [ a question but an offer. jyn is unaccustomed to the openness but it somehow comes naturally now. giving as much as she feels like she's taking. but then again, they'd always been partners. ]
it feels indulgent, drinking in cassian like this, lingering in every kiss and breath. she's too distracted to take much note of what he might like aside from what he tells her but there's always next time. the thought of a next time, of many next times, makes her nerves feel like they've been shocked, a sizzle and then warmth. ]
What else would you like? [ a question but an offer. jyn is unaccustomed to the openness but it somehow comes naturally now. giving as much as she feels like she's taking. but then again, they'd always been partners. ]
[she asks him again, and he still doesn't have an answer. she wants... to do things for him? which is a common enough offer in the middle of sex, but coming from jyn it feels far more real. for his sake, not just because that's how people get off. he ducks his head back down to kiss her, because he wants to, but also because it serves as a good delay and distraction.]
I would like your pants gone soon. [all right all right, true facts that don't relate to him directly. but the way she keeps digging her fingers into his skin makes him feel like he's doing something right, like he wants to just keep going and hold on to that feeling like she's holding on to him.]
I would like your pants gone soon. [all right all right, true facts that don't relate to him directly. but the way she keeps digging her fingers into his skin makes him feel like he's doing something right, like he wants to just keep going and hold on to that feeling like she's holding on to him.]
Edited 2018-06-07 04:30 (UTC)
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