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And you just let him?

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i almost shot him
but he can talk fast

and he's useful

[ and so a young woman running from a life of murder on the night of her wedding to a prince who was meant to be her ticket out of there and ended up dead because of it became a warrior princess and the thief who saved her ]

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Then it was a lucky attempted theft for both of you.

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we've been partners for years
he's my gravity

[ and now he's gone ]

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Gravity is a pull.

I suspect that means you will just be pulled in together again.

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i hope so

[ and then, a minute (and a glass of whiskey) later: ]

i don't know how to be a decent person without him

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Just because he is not here does not mean you cannot think about what he might do.

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what if i get it wrong

[ it's only because she's very deep into the scotch and because she thinks that of everyone here, cassian is the most like her that she even admits to the fear ]

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Then you get it wrong and try again, if that is what you want.

I have no answers, because I have not figured out how to be that either. I do not think being decent is a one choice move.

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wish i could just punch something and be done with it

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That is Jyn's preferred method as well.

I am not sure it always works. But punching bags exist too.

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even i know it doesn't always work
sometimes you need to science the shit out of stuff to solve problems

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I do not know if science has the answers to being a good person either.

Maybe there is a combination of all of the above.

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what if we're too broken?

[ we is easier to write than i. she thinks cassian won't take it personally. she thinks he must have wondered the same thing at some point, but maybe she's wrong about that. ]

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[ he thinks he is most of the time. it's not really a wonder so much as something he takes as fact: cassian andor is very broken. ]

You can still keep trying to fix whatever is left.

[ she used 'we,' but he can't bring himself to do the same. ]

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[ she notices the you, the lack of we, but doesn't even know how to begin addressing that. ]

i've been trying

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That counts. It means you want to do better.

Intentions are important.

[ now if only he could apply that logic to himself too. ]

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half the time

what about you?

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Half the time is still more than none of the time.

What, my intentions?

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yeah

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I do what I need to for the Rebellion.

[ listen. he will defend everyone else's intentions just fine but his own clearly DON'T MATTER. ]

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there's no rebellion here

[ let her point that out instead of the hypocrisy of his disregard for himself ]

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[ he never said he wasn't a hypocrite!! ]

No, but there are many similarities between the corruption of this world and my own.

My intentions vary from mission to mission.

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there's the whole morningstar thing
you into that?

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I was. It seemed like a good means to an end.

But some of the people involved do not know how to work with an organization like that.